That's what I kept repeating, out loud for about 5 minutes as I stared at the shower in the camper and for the entire time I was in the shower. You know what, it didn't kill me, but I gagged the whole time. I have officially survived a full 24 hours of camper living. I washed breakfast dishes this morning and again, gagged the entire time I had to scoop soggy eggs out of the water because there wasn't a garbage disposal. You would think I was an worthless city girl but I'm NOT. I just have serious bathroom issues and anything involving water really.
There is a "nice" beach and swimming area here at the lake and the kids are dying to swim. I looked at Rick and he knew that was all him. Even if I weren't still healing from a surgery I had several months ago, there is no way I was going near that water with any part of my body. It causes my blood pressure to sky rocket just to think of the kids in the water because they are basically an extension of me. But that is when I will just keep repeating "It will NOT kill them, it will only make me stronger". But I will be thinking IT CAN KILL THEM, THEY WILL GET SOME WATER BACTERIA, CATCH E COLI AND DIE! Believe me, any of my high school friends that were in CYCLE with me will remember the Deam's Lake incident where everyone that swam in the lake spent the next 3 days puking all over the camp site, in the bathrooms and behind every tree. Now, I'm not saying this is where my fear of lake swimming and camp ground bathrooms came from, but it certainly didn't help any.
Wish me luck and keep praying for us. We have a long way to go.
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